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09:16pm 24/04/2006
 
mood: exhausted
Ok so  this weekend was just wild! Friday Jackie and i just spent all day together and it was amazing..so yay things are better with us..but saturday..wow..what can i say..besides on big drunkin haze..i cant even remember what the fuck i did with my keys..as far as a phone is concerned..who knows where the hell that is..and i  am sorry if your mad at me jenn..cause yeah..thats the reason i try not to drink anymore..i go all big whore..not an excuse i know..but anyways i have your pants all washed and clean..well thats all..love ya bitches! SWAK!		  
     

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05:48pm 28/03/2006
  So long time no update, no im not dead. Just was a lil homeless therefor a while guys. Even weirder i`m living with my boyfriends mother... Its all good. My mother wigged the fuck out on me..crazy ass beeyotch..but anywhoo, its cool here. Jackie has been so wonderful to me. We are so goofy together. I mean our idea of fun is gettin high and going to walmart and spending hours on end there being dorks. We have been dubbed the cutest couple at work. Well what do you expect we are!

I miss hangingout with my bestest buddy in the whole wide world Jennifer. She was working at hacks for awhile then told them funky ass peeps to shove that job up there asses! WOOO! You go girlfriend!

Anyways paaaaaaaaaaarty peeps holla and stay cool! Remember crack is wack! LOL dont ask!		  
     

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01:47am 25/03/2006
  whats up. ok so been homeless..no johnnykins i didn`t get trapped in pylea :P. but now i`m fine im staying with my boyfriends mother so its all good. :) just updating lovies!  
     

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09:22pm 18/02/2006
 

Ok so like loving the idea of snow..but tooooooootally hate ice..

Kinda pissed at jackie too..ok its all fun and games to call your girlfriend a crazy knife welding manicac..till everyone els joins in..and oh oh theres this girl at work who is all like Jackie brown remember me..and i`m lookin at her like bitch please he doesn`t remember you..and she looks at me like wow..thats the girl your with now..and what the hell kinda look is that suppose to mean..i`m cute with great hair! anyways she sat in his lap at work..and of course i freaked..ok i kinda yelled hey skank ball get off my boyfriend..I mean come on..i might be 5`1 but oh hidey..i can be a fire ball..and whats leading up to my long winded story is..he hasn`t called me and i can just guess the skankballs working tonight..so yeah..

  
     

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09:54pm 14/02/2006
 
mood: pissed off
Ok first of all for ALL those people who think they know me..don`t EVER put me on your fucking page! Cause man its awesome to read someones jouran and see this bout yourself! " So I feel like crap yet again. If you read this Liz, I am not just having pitty on myself you self-centered alcoholic."  I am not a drunk..selfcentered yes..but don`t FUCKING call me a drunk again. Yeah i drink..but no all the time..so FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! And anyways moving on. I hope everyone had a great V-Day! Works going great even though its now my life..lol. Oh man Jenn told me our friend mark who is a manager had to wait tables..GOSH i wish i coulda seen that! LOL Oh my Gawd my moms been having nightmares about a lobster we saw at Krogers the other day..its the funniest thing ive ever heard about! God i love my mom she is dingy as me..(OH wow..better watch out saying that some motherfucker might say my moms a selfcenter alcholic too! if i say she and i are alike!) Well lata party people!  Geuss i`m gonna go get plowed and be all selfcentered! Its what i fucking do!		  
     

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Whadd up doe!   
02:41pm 10/02/2006
 

Ok so its bout damn time snow has come!!!!!!! Its sooooooooo purdy and all blanket like! I love snow!!!!!! YAY!!! And its so final me and jackie are official! ok so rambling..I actually have a day off today and LOVIN it! Especailly with the snowage!!! Saw when a stranger calls the other night with Jennifer..she hated it..I liked it..but it was soooo different from the original but it was good. Anyways just wanted to say Whudd up doe!

  
     

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04:25pm 27/01/2006
 
mood: cheerful
Well Jackie and Christina finally broke up for good! So now we don`t have to sneak around! And wow its awesome! Christina also got her ass put in place by our GM and cant get by with whatever she wants!!! Life is awesome its like God smiled down upon me and was like,"Child life is gonna go your way!" So YAY! Ok anyways. Jenn and i went out lastnight and it was soooooooo much fun. Sang karioke..(I cant spell..) and it was fun..I got people up dancing around to Sweet Home Alabama! LOL i was all rockstarish! Oh yeah! anyways thats it. Peace!
  
     

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Ello!   
04:31pm 26/01/2006
 
mood: contemplative
Ok so i haven`t updated on this bad boy foooooooooorever! So lifes going great. (finally) Works totally awesome  and relationships are somewhat making sence to me..wich is majorly odd! but anyways just saying hi and will update more later.		  
     

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Truth hurts   
10:12pm 13/01/2005
 
mood: lost
music: Bob Dylan It aint me babe
well theres been alot going on..friends come and go..so do boyfriends..I dunno its just life. like the people you think will be there forever are the first to turn there backs on you..and my god does it hurt.. my supposed best friend accused me of lying about her and sleeping with her boyfriend..who by the way i so wouldn`t touch with a ten foot pole! and besides that i was with his best friend who i so love..but he obviously doesn`t love me..or like the saying goes..maybe he just isn`t that into me..wich as a woman we make excusses..when we should just wake up and smell the fucking coffee..cause if we just stop trying to pretend everything is perfect we wont be so crushed when we figure out its not..i dunno..thats just life. I just wish i`d wake up and everything would be so clear. well thought i`d up date and put out my feelings instead of some stupid quizz..		  
     

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restless   
06:16pm 07/04/2004
 
mood: restless
music: Evenesance Haunted
"restless tonight cause i wasted the day.." it sums up the way i feel. inside i have so much going on and i can`t seem to get it out. I feel like two different people all the time. the one thats happy around others and the one who feels like a caged animal when i am alone. not normal..but then again whats normal? something that is normal to me is abnormal to someone else..I have so much anger towards my mother and its not her fault. its mine i am the one who needs to grow up and start acting like an adult. I admit some of the things i do is not cool. and i don`t know why i do it. but in the long run does anyone know why they do these things? No..and if they could would they change it..In a new york minute i believe. I would do alot of things over..relationships, actions, things i thought and felt. but you cant..and thats the thing that makes me insane. I hate having this feeling. i feel like something inside of me is slowly clawing its way out..and when it comes out..i dont know whats gonna happen. i have these thoughts that if i end it..and no i don`t mean killing myself, the pain, the furry, and the restlessness would go away. but it wont..it never does..and why is this going on..i still love what fred said before she "died", "Why cant I stay?" thats the way i feel. cause i have this idea..the person "inside" of me is slowly going to show her face. and i don`t know if people are going to like her. I am the smart, quirky, hyper girl..but the other one is dark..and i don`t want the darkness..if that makes sence and yes i realize this sounds crazy..but i don`t care..its what I`m feeling..well i guess i`ve said enough...		  
     

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Where the hell do people get off?   
12:33pm 04/04/2004
 
mood: pissed off
music: Stupid Girl By Garbage
Its irritating how people act like they are so perfect and what you do is wrong..You charge something and its a crime they do it and its sensible. You talk on your phone and my god its a sin..they do it and they are helping someone. it just pisses me off the way people act..I am 22 years old and my mother well grandmother bitches at me all the time about my life. I "Abuse" things..she says. I wanna be like how the hell do i "abuse" things when you do the same shit as me? She takes off and goes to the casinos and blows money like theres no tomorrow.. I go out and charge about $30 and its a abuse..well what the hell is it that she does? Hmm? if anyone knows please tell me. I pay for my credit card bills..i pay for the phone bill, wich btw her phone is on as well..and everything is paid off on time..but yet she throws it in my face that i don`t make alot of money..fuck i am 22 years old didn`t know that the freaking presidentcy of some major corperate company was open..jesus christ..its really hard not yelling at her..cause my god i just wanna yell at her and shake the shit out of her..it sounds bad..but at time i wanna kill her..take out a gun and shoot her..or hell grab a knife and slit her throat..and thats not normal. it kinda actually scares me..i wonder why i even come by and visit her? I geuss i feel bad if i don`t..and hell she just had heart surgury and i was worried about her..but now i`m like jeeze did they just remove the damn thing? In the begining it was small but now i don`t think its there..she has gotten so mean towards me. brings up my past and makes me feel like shit about it. but then again who doesn` have a past? who? there is no one who is perfect and has the right to down others cause of their past regreshions.. hell i don`t know...		  
     

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nada   
02:52pm 03/04/2004
 
mood: bouncy
music: my friend rambling
Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there becauseyou were frozen in ice/a crystal
For _____ years19
With
He/She will think you arestrong
You willmake a coconut radio
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!
  
     

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New Journal   
08:29pm 01/04/2004
 
mood: accomplished
music: Beck Loser
Got a new journal i wish someone could help me with the emote icons i need some brintey spears one thanks yall!		  
     

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